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Saturday, July 16, 2011

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

A.I.R M.A.T.A

air mata telah jatuh membasahi bumi
takkan sanggup menghapus gelisah
penyesalan yg kini ada
jadi tak berarti
karna waktu yg bengis terus pergi

menangislah bila harus menangis
karena kita semua manusia
manusia bisa terluka manusia pasti menangis
dan manusia pun bisa mengambil hikmah
dibalik segala duka tersimpan hikmah
yg bisa kita petik pelajaran
dibalik segala suka tersimpan hikmah
yang kan mungkin bisa jadi cobaan


Source: http://liriklaguindonesia.net/d/dewa/cintailah-cinta/dewa-air-mata/#ixzz1RJk4cDfa

Monday, July 4, 2011

K.I.N.I


Dinihari kian ku rasa
Ku imbas kembali waktu bersama
Segala kenangan silam
Bagai berlaku semalam
Hujan membasahi kita
Ku rasa bagai tangisan gembira
Dan burung bagai menyanyi
Lagu cinta


Kini hanyalah tinggal kenangan
Tiada ku rasa dalam genggaman
Hanya terdaya mengimbas semua
Kenangan yang lalu
Tiada kata ucapan di bibir
Tak ku sangka kali terakhir kini
KAu tidak akan kembali lagi


Sejenak ku tersedar pilu
Hanya bayanganmu yang menemaniku
Tapi apakan daya
Tuhan penentu segalanya


Kesal rasa hatiku
Kerna kali terakhir kita bertemu
Tiada ku lafazkan oh kata cinta

Friday, July 1, 2011

Doing a PhD in the Social Sciences: Myths, Tips and Strategies

Doing a PhD in the Social Sciences: Myths, Tips and Strategies. From: http://www.kevinmorrell.org.uk/PhDTips.htm


These notes are the basis of presentations given to PhD students at the British Academy of Management, to business school PhD students at Warwick, PhD students at Loughborough faculty of social sciences and a recent conference of PhD students in different disciplines at the University of Hull (featured in an article in The Independent 'Success in your Doctorate').

These are some of the lessons that helped me finish in 2.5 years & pass with no corrections. Hopefully this will be of use to you too, but remember that what is written here is just my opinion and the most important considerations for you are what you want from your PhD, and what your supervisor and institution expect.


Some of the ideas expressed below are also discussed in the book ‘How to get a PhD’ by Phillips and Pugh. If you haven’t read this, it's a very good idea to do so. My PhD abstract is at the bottom of this page.


Introduction


What is a PhD?
A PhD is something that is finished.


There are a number of ways of thinking about it. The first thing that comes immediately to mind to many PhD students is that it is ‘a contribution to knowledge’.

Other elements to it are that it is: a license to teach in a university, a signal of expertise and authority, a qualification, the highest degree that can be awarded in a university.


Less obviously perhaps, it means you are a fully professional researcher, it’s a kind of ‘passport’ or sign that you belong to a ‘club’. In real terms, it means several years of hard, lonely work that is potentially very rewarding. You can think of it as an apprenticeship for a career in academia – but there are a lot of reasons for doing a PhD.


It also means you can change your credit card and cheque book details to Doctor and book restaurant tables as Doctor if that means anything to you (though you don't want to be asked for medical advice if that happens!). It can be beneficial if you’re a woman and you don’t like being asked if it’s Miss, Ms or Mrs.


What do you need to finish a PhD?
To finish a PhD you need to be determined.

Myths
There are plenty of myths associated with the process of doing a PhD (for example you need to be a 'genius', or you have to do something totally original, or the PhD will be the best work you ever do). These myths can be unhelpful because although they might have some truth in them, they can be extremely unhelpful if you believe that they are wholly (or even largely) true. If you don't recognise the dangers of these myths, then you will not have realistic expectations about doing your PhD which will make you less effective and is likely to lead to disappointment.


At best these myths can slow you down, at worst they can even become excuses for not finishing. They slow you down because if you believe in them, then you avoid trying to find constructive explanations that lead to more helpful behaviours (for example forcing yourself to write something, no matter what it looks like at first). In the worst case scenario, they may be a justification for why you 'can't' do a PhD (when maybe you actually can). Believing in some of these myths is actually convenient at one level, because it means you aren't responsible for delays, or for failing to finish, but it is a real problem if finishing a PhD is what you really want to do. Everyone who completes a PhD has doubts at some stage: e.g. 'they must have let me in by mistake'; 'everyone else doing one is cleverer than me' etc. Below are listed some unhelpful PhD 'myths', as well as some short counterarguments to each of them. You might find it useful to think about whether these or similar myths may be holding you back.


Myth 1 You need to be a genius.


WHY IS THIS DANGEROUS> It's an impossible standard to live up to.


COUNTER> Many, many people have done PhDs, it is not possible that they are all 'geniuses' (whatever that means anyway). In completing one you follow a fairly systematic procedure applied to many different people and the quality of PhDs varies (look at some).


Myth 2 You have to do something no-one has ever done before.
WHY IS THIS DANGEROUS> This misunderstands the nature of a 'contribution' to knowledge.


COUNTER> What you do is build on other people's work in a rigorous, precise way - you have to do this or else how are you adding to the existing state of knowledge? If no-one has done anything like what you're studying before then maybe it's not such a great idea! Of course what you do has to be your own work and it is original and new in that sense, but one common problem is overestimating what 'counts' as a contribution to knowledge. Precisely what that means for you and for your PhD is something you need to work on with your supervisor.


Myth 3 The PhD is going to be your life’s work and a masterpiece. &
It will be the best thing you ever do.
WHY IS THIS DANGEROUS> Again it's an impossible standard to reach.


COUNTER> Remember that when you are doing a PhD you are learning (by definition). The idea of a masterpiece may be helpful if you think of the PhD as an 'apprenticeship' - i.e. when you've finished you should be ready to start as a professional researcher. But - if you stop and try to get a longer term perspective - it's actually quite discouraging to think it will be your best work (though it may be your longest). For one thing, one of the things you learn is how you could have done it better and how you would improve in future projects (you are very likely to get asked a version of that question at your viva).


Myth 4 The PhD will revolutionise or shake the foundations of your discipline.
WHY IS THIS DANGEROUS> Like myth 2 this misunderstands what is required. You need to finish a time-bound project, not win a Nobel prize.


COUNTER> You have to do what a competent PhD student could do in 3-4 years (doesn't sound so bad put like that does it?). As a PhD student it is a nice and noble intellectual dream to think you can change the way the academic community thinks because of your research. The last think I would want to do is discourage anyone from having dreams or from thinking big. However, if you think you have to do that in order to be awarded a PhD you are wrong, plain and simple. Most genuinely groundbreaking research comes after not during people's PhDs.


Myth 5 You’re going to spend three years on one topic.
WHY IS THIS DANGEROUS> Though this is a common misperception, it is a really unhelpful belief because it makes doing a PhD sound soooooooo boring.


COUNTER> Yes you do something specific, but you have to first identify what that will be, then pursue it. To do this you typically have to: get to know several strands of literature (and keep up to date with them), understand a context, devise a method (get to grips with epistemology and methodology), get hold of (or 'construct' depending on your epistemology) some data - often you'll have to negotiate access, carry out the analysis etc. etc.




Myth 6 Being able to write well is a ‘gift’. OR
Writing is just a question of getting down what you know, it will all come together the time comes. OR
Writing is what you do at the end, that's why it is called 'writing up'.
WHY IS THIS DANGEROUS> These are very unhelpful excuses for procrastinating, or for writing to a low standard.


COUNTER> You have to write to a competent standard, which is high (by nature of the PhD), but this is a learned skill. The only way to acquire this skill is by doing it. It may help to think of three ingredients that go together in developing writing skills: 1. Practise (see section on writing below) 2. Read widely in quality journals (and aspire to those standards). 3. Get regular, constructive criticism on your writing.


Tips
General


If you haven’t already done one, I recommend you write a fairly detailed (2 page) proposal and timeline. An example of the one I used to apply for a place is further down this page. This bears little resemblance to what I ended up actually doing, but it helped me to have a sense of structure at the beginning.


As soon as you can look at other people’s PhDs from your institution. Do this periodically throughout your thesis. When you start writing things, you will be able to assess the merits of your work by comparing it with other people’s. If you start doing this today, it won’t be long before you find something that you think you can ‘beat’.


Ask your supervisor if you can look at PhDs from students they have supervised. This might give you the clearest idea of what they think is required.

Literature Review

Early on get a list of the top (ten) journals in your field and use the zetoc alert service (find it via google and search for 'zetoc mimas alert') to send you the contents pages of each one as it comes out. You need to do this throughout to keep up with the literature.


Get to know how to use your institution's library (+ inter-library loans).


Get to know how to use your institution's electronic library and e-journals.


Get to know how to use google scholar carefully (i.e. to find quality journal articles and sources).


Build up and systematically organise a mini-library of your own, made up of relevant (and recent) journal articles.


Get into the habit of collecting references in full. One of the things that shows engagement with the field and a body of literature is a long list of relevant references at the end of a thesis, which are used thoughtfully throughout the literature review and discussion chapters. This is also vital when you are taking notes on what you read. Be very mindful of the dangers of plagiarising something - it is irrelevant whether you do this accidentally (e.g. by confusing notes from an article with your own words), you must always give credit if citing others' ideas.


If you decide early on and use the same referencing system it will save time. Here’s an example of what I used to give you an idea (there may be specific requirements in your institution, so you should check this):


Journal article: Morrell, K. and Wilkinson, A.J., (2002) 'Empowerment: Through the Smoke and Past the Mirrors', Human Resource Development International, 5(1): 119-130.


Book: Mellahi, K., Morrell, K. and Wood, G. (2009) The Ethical Business 2e, Palgrave, London.


Conference paper: Morrell, K., Loan Clarke, J. and Wilkinson, A.J., (2003) 'Shocks, Images and Nurse Turnover', Democracy in a Knowledge Economy, Nagao, D.H. (ed), 63rd Annual Meeting of the Academy of Management, Seattle, Washington, USA, August, [CD-ROM].


Contribution in edited book: Morrell, K., (2001) 'Business Strategy and Contingency Approaches to HRM', in The Informed Student Guide to HRM, Redman, T. and Wilkinson, A. (eds), Thomson Learning: 22-24.


Departmental working paper: Morrell, K.M., Loan Clarke, J. and Wilkinson, A.J., (2001) 'Lee and Mitchell's Unfolding Model of Employee Turnover - A Theoretical Assessment', Loughborough University Business School Research Series, No. 2001:2.


Book review: Morrell, K., (2003) review of C. Cooper, and D. Rousseau (Eds), Trends in Organizational Behavior Vol 8: Employee versus Owner Issues in Organizations, Personnel Review, 32(4): 526-530.


Web-site: Morrell, K. (2009) 'Doing a PhD in the Social Sciences: Myths, Tips and Strategies', http://www.kevinmorrell.org.uk/PhDTips.htm last accessed on April 13th, 2009.


Writing
Write early, write often. The more you write, the better you will become at it. Even if you are not going to try and publish anything while you are doing your thesis (this is probably a mistake), you must get into the habit of writing down your ideas. Start with a modest target – maybe review three articles in your field (3,000 words say) then give it to your supervisor and ask for feedback.


If English is not your first language:


· Speak English at every opportunity
· Get into the habit of listening to radio 4 and / or radio 5
· Seek specialist tuition if you need to and find out what help is available in the university. Do this now rather than have to spend months redrafting. You will have to learn the language to a very high standard, and this is a long term process which starts now.
· Remember it isn’t your supervisor’s job to proof read what you write, they are interested in your ideas – they can’t be expected to correct your English (though they should give some help), and they only have a limited time available for you - try to use that time to most effect, i.e. get advice about your PhD, not your English.
· On a positive note, doing a PhD often involves learning a new vocabulary for English speakers. Some people starting a PhD will be as unfamiliar as non-English speakers with concepts like methodology or epistemology, for example.


Personal lessons
I wish I had:


Learned to touch type


Kept a research diary


Gone to more staff development courses


I’m glad I:


Had a pragmatic view of the PhD


Chose an interesting topic


Chose what I wanted to do


Had excellent supervisors


Strategies
Managing your supervisor

I think it’s helpful to see the relationship with your supervisor(s) as a LONG-TERM, PROFESSIONAL one.

You may ‘hit it off’ straight away, but this is unlikely, and may not even be helpful as there may be times when you need to talk to your supervisor about how you are dissatisfied, or to ask for more support and guidance. It is more important over the course of your PhD to:


· Build trust


· Build confidence


· Build a good, working relationship


Than to:


· Become best mates
· Swap stories

Some quick ways to build trust, confidence and a good, working relationship are to:
· Keep promises
· Clarify expectations
· Share information
· Make specific commitments and honour them

If you want to damage your relationship with your supervisor, do the reverse. You could also try the following: disappear without telling them, go to visit them without any particular reason, fail to hand work in (or fail to do any work), don’t keep them up to date on your progress / lack of progress, don’t read anything they advise you to, ignore their comments on drafts of your work, phone up for frequent chats about nothing in particular.


Your supervisor will have several legitimate expectations. They will want you to:
· Show initiative, be proactive etc. basically be independent – these are key to doing PhD research in the social sciences
· Be honest about how things are going
· Produce quality written work that is not a first draft
· Meet deadlines (or explain why not)
· Meet regularly to discuss your progress (regularly doesn’t necessarily mean weekly)
· Be keen & enthusiastic
· Listen to their advice. This does not mean you have to always follow their advice (you have to be independent), but it does mean that when you disagree, you can show you 1. reflected on what they said 2. can state clearly the reasons why you chose not to follow their advice and 3. can say what else you suggest (or what you did) & why.
· Tell them what you are learning (you will become an expert)


You are entitled to expect:
· Regular, constructive criticism on your written work
· Guidance, suggestions and ideas for research avenues
· Help with the literature
· Advice at each stage of the project
· Support
· Some (though probably not too much!) direction

Here are some more suggestions:


When you go to meet your supervisor always take a pen and some paper, together with a list of things you want to talk about. This is so that you show: attentiveness, planning, that you are seeing her/him for a reason, that you recognise their time is important. It will help you get what you want as well (partly because you won’t forget what you went in there for), and force you to be focused.


If you phone your supervisor always ask first if they have a couple of minutes, and offer to call back later if they can’t talk to you then.


Don’t try to collar people in the corridor – being in a corridor is a sure fire sign that someone is going somewhere (-: If you see someone and it reminds you that you need to talk to them, make a note to phone them later.


Try to gain a sense of your supervisor’s preferred style of working – they may prefer a written document or e-mail, or they may want to discuss things and periodically review your work, likewise they may want to meet frequently or they may be happier with a more structured, formal arrangement. If their way of working isn’t helping you, you could try gently ‘educating’ them, by being more organised yourself, and clearer about what your needs and expectations are.


How to finish within a reasonable time


First keep in mind the myths and keep your eyes on the prize - a PhD is above anything else, something that is finished. Second, don’t get disheartened if it seems like it’s taking you along time to get going. This is a common feeling during the first year or so. It is better to take the time to be really clear about what you are doing and how, than to try to go and ‘collect data’ (for example) only to find it’s not relevant to your needs.


Try to keep in mind these goals.
· A title for your thesis
· Clearly formulated research questions, which are ‘good’ questions, by which I mean: practical / feasible (you can answer them), interesting (to you at the very least), will lead to a contribution and symmetrical (i.e. whatever you find out, you’ll be able to tell a story – you could come unstuck if you set out to prove or find something and you don’t)
· Being able to summarise your (expected) contribution in two sentences

If you have these things, then you have the "spine" of your dissertation and it is a good indication that you know what you are doing (which is not as simple as it may sound). It will help with overall structure.
Unless you have submitted and are waiting for a date for the viva there is never, ever any excuse for not being able to do some work that is relevant to completion. This can be reading, writing, analysis, or something that is extremely important - planning.

One of the problems with doing a PhD is it is easy to get wrapped up in the detail of what you are looking at at the moment, but forgetting the ‘big picture’. This is one of the things your supervisor should help you with, but you can help yourself by trying to think strategically about the process, and your long term goals. For example, do you need to become an expert in the literature in a field, or do you need to know one theory really well, and know the main ways it is different from ‘the others’.

Do not fall into the trap of thinking you have to wait for feedback about your latest piece of submitted work until you can progress or move to the ‘next stage’. This will slow you down.


Pretty early on (within the first year), you are likely to have an understanding of what research methods you want to use, and what type of data you can collect. It is highly likely that you are going to be using sophisticated analytical techniques (whether qualitative or quantitative or both) and even if you are familiar with the techniques, you will be using them at a more proficient level. Don’t wait until you start analysis to familiarise yourself with these techniques. This will slow you down.


Look out for courses on undergraduate programmes which may be relevant to your needs, and ask the lecturer if you can sit in. If you do things like this early on, it reduces the lead time to learn techniques prior to data analysis. Bear in mind that learning these techniques is iterative and usually a long term process.


Though you need to keep up with the literature, don’t always be swayed by the latest research, you should have an idea of what you are doing after the first year (or so). It’s important not to get sidetracked. Again, this will slow you down.


Be aware that your plans may change, in fact if you are to do well, they will probably need to change. Finally, not everything in the process is within your control, and this can be very frustrating. Remember that when you finish is not necessarily a sign of how good your work is, the important thing is to finish.


Summary


Be clear that your expectations of what is involved in doing a PhD are realistic (beware the myths)


Aim for a working, professional relationship with your supervisor (Phillips and Pugh is good on managing your supervisor)


Try to keep your end goal in mind and stay ahead of the game (remember the tips + strategies and develop your own)


GOOD LUCK!


Finally

If you are thinking of doing a PhD, please use the resources here, that is what they are for, but...


Please do not send me your draft proposal


Much as I would like to help, I don't have the resources to review draft proposals. However, if you want to apply formally to my institution, please do so. The links below should help you.




Example of a Proposal


Abstract:


A survey commissioned by the Royal College of Nursing (RCN) found that 8.7% of nurses left the profession in 1997 Michelle Dixon spokeswoman for the Royal College of Nursing commenting on this said, "The problem is so big, it’s more than a recruitment campaign alone that’s needed." Bob Abberley head of health at Unison talked of the recruitment and retention "crisis" at the labour party conference 1998, he said, "Pay is now the burning issue in the NHS".


Aims:


To provide a contribution to the understanding of recruitment and retention in the NHS. To provide practical recommendations for improving both.


Hypotheses:


Recruitment / retention can be improved by changes to things other than pay including: Training provision / administration, Management styles and structures, Use of 'nurse mentoring', Better modelling of nurse labour supply and demand


Research Methodology:

I will have a better understanding of appropriate methodology after completing my management report and dissertation, which are on topics relevant to the proposal. I intend to use a mix of methods to gather data, to reflect the fact that this problem does not lend itself readily to either an exclusively nomothetic or ideographic approach.


Data collection will comprise semi-structured individual interviews with management and nurses as well as more free-ranging discussion with focus groups in 4 NHS Trusts to identify key issues / factors affecting recruitment and retention. These data it is hoped will form the basis for a comparison, to see if salient differences can be identified and correlated with shelf data on wastage rates, participation rates etc.


This will also form the framework for a survey targeted principally at management in trusts across the country, but also to explore attitudes of senior nurses responsible for recruitment in these trusts. This will be to see if wider comparison of factors affecting recruitment and retention and subsequent correlation with labour turnover metrics is possible. A regional cross-break will also identify national differences. Access should not be a problem, given Loughborough's excellent links with the NHS in the midlands, and prior completion of theses across all NHS trusts.


Problems anticipated with Method:


Trying to isolate the extraneous variable of pay.


The method depends on finding local differences, such differences may not be sufficiently significant.


Initial selection of just 4 trusts may be flawed, given possible national variations.


Personal limitations re running of focus groups and interviewing may lead to bias.


Accounting for other, manifold extraneous variables will prove difficult.


The study may suffer by lacking longitudinal scope, so changes may be hard to assess.




Timeline:
0-6 months


Literature Review


Identification of 4 trusts




3-6 months


Exploratory Interviews


Selection / set up of focus groups




6-12 months


Literature Review extended to cover survey design issues


Conducting Semi-structured Interviews + running Focus Groups




12-15 months


Survey Design


Comparison of 4 trusts




15 months


Send out survey


Correlation of factors in 4 trusts




15-24 months


Data Gathering


Continued correlation and wider analysis




24-33 months


Writing Up






The abstract for my PhD was as follows:

This thesis reports the first independent test of an influential model of employee turnover (Lee, Mitchell, Holtom, McDaniel and Hill 1999). The context for this test is the case of nurse turnover in the National Health Service (NHS). There have been many hundreds of turnover studies in the last fifty years, and many ways of understanding the turnover phenomenon. The thesis organises this literature, by selectively analysing and discussing the more influential of these studies. This selective, critical review allows for the model tested here to be placed in a theoretical and historical context.


A critique of the model signalled the need for theoretical development prior to operationalisation. However, the relative paucity of empirical evidence in support of the model suggested that replicating the basic findings of the authors would also be desirable. Accordingly, the case for a critical test was clear, and an outline of the role of this type of replication facilitated this.


The research involved eight NHS trusts, in three regions. In total, 352 full-time nurse leavers participated. Data relating to their decision to leave was collected via an eight page survey, which comprised both closed and open items. Analysis and interpretation of these data challenge the current formulation of the model tested, as well as contributing to the understanding of employee turnover and nursing turnover.


KEYWORDS: Employee Turnover, Human Resource Planning, Unfolding Model, Modelling, Decision Making, NHS, Nurses, Replication


If you emailed me and were sent a link to this page please click here


click here for the kinds of questions a potential supervisor may have about a PhD proposal


click here for a slideshow with some suggestions on how to think about the PhD


Some other sources


SR Covey, The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, The Business Library 1989 is good for personal development / time management


This might be useful if you get stuck:

http://www.dissertationdoctor.com/


On doing PhDs in a second language:


http://www.nationmultimedia.com/edu/edu_back/020513/ednew_wed.shtml


A study on PhD completion and health

http://kerlins.net/bobbi/research/myresearch/health.html


Below are some miscellaneous tips:


http://cs.anu.edu.au/grad/current/guide/#purpose

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*Bila darah tidak mahu menerima benda asing..antibody akan berperang bersunguh-sungguh demi mempertahankan wilayah mereka.. sob..sob..sob. Dahlah antibody saya dah tak kuat sejak disengat tebuan 8 tahun lepas..Lagilah, tersalah pegang je pun, kulit da gatai n nek merah..

*Akibat kealergian inilah, saya bukan jenis yang pergi merata-rata tempat untuk mencari makanan apa yang special dan yang paling sedap di sesuatu tempat, cukup makan apa yang ada dan cukup apa yang ada di depan mata.. Walaupun kekadang teringin nak tahu n explore pelbagai jenis makanan tapi, apa kan daya.. Ketakutan kealergian mengatasi segalanya..hehe.. Sebab saya jenis kalau dah suka sesuatu tu nanti banyak kali saya akan pergi lagi.. So, baik tak payah tahu n xpayah p terus demi kesihatan..heee..Kalau x, teringat je nanti.. (Sebenarnya paling takut ialah kulit jadi makin hodoh..hee).. Teringat masa dulu kawan pernah bagi saya rasa sushi..dari jenis nasi, macam pulut je, balut ngan rumpai laut.. pas makan sesuap je pun, mula dah rasa gatay tekak dan berjangkit kat bahagian lain..pastu bintik2 cam kena gigit nyamuk mula naik kat bahagian gatay2 tu..Pastu saya pun takut nak makan even bukan dari sumber haiwan..Mungkin bahan-bahannya seperti cuka kot sebab masam2 skit akibatkan saya alergi.. Nilah antara sebab saya malas, takut dan was-was nak cuba sesuatu makanan yang berbeza-beza terutama bukan makanan melayu sebab saya  tahu dah, kesudahannya adalah alergi. Bahan-bahan yang diproses seperti keropok ikn dll,belacan. daging cincang, naget, sosej, daging beger dan segala jenis bebola sangat sedap, tapi... saya kalau boleh elak, saya elak dari memakannya..sebab alergi lagi teruk dengan makanan seperti ini. sob sob sob...

*Akibat kealergian ni juga saya jadi sangat tak suka memasak.Jadi benci dan fed up dengan semua benda di dapur..Kalau saya dah benci dan fed up saya tak akan usik. Bila saya masak, saya akan masak pelbagai jenis lauk dan sayur walaupun tadek la sedap pun.. tapi dah bermain dengan ikan, sotong, ketam, ayam, daging, telur, sardin dan perencah2nya..paham2 jelah pastu mestilah duk merasa makanan sendirikan.. Rasa je pun, dah gatay2..Saya juga tak boleh makan dari masakan yang menggunakan minyak lama or sudah dua kali sudah guna untuk memasak.. huhu..Atau bahan2 yg telah diproses lama dan pembuatannya tidak bersih seperti serbuk lada or perencah masakan. Masih teringat, saya nak masak sayur pedas, masuk serbuk lada sikit.. bahan-bahan lain tidak dimasukkan lagi.. Baru je rasa sayur dan serbuk lada sulah tu terus nek alergi..hadoiii.. So, manalah saya tak trauma memasakkan? Pendek kata memang seksalah..  Cuma.. diusia begini, saya tengah terapkan mud suka memasak. Al-maklumlah orang perempuankan kenalah reti memasak..hik..untuk kebahagian masa depan..

*Akibat kealergian yang teruk sewaktu buat ijazah dulu.. saya rasa, satu sem juga saya jadi vegeterian.. memang trauma gila dengan haiwan-haiwan nih.. saya nampak haiwan tu macam musuh utama yang perlu saya elak.. Tahap vegeterian, setiap minggu saya minta mak kawan baik saya belikan tomato, timun dan lobak untuk saya, makan roti, biskut, kalau makan nasi pun sayur je dengan tempe atau tauhu..(makanan orang sakit)..  Saya banyak makan ulam-ulam sebab takut nak makan sayur yang sudah masak (bayangkanlah u all, i takut sampai mcm mn, sebab sayur yang di masak ada minyak dan ada campuran haiwan2, makan sup sayur pun alergi, yelah sup dia ada pati daging or ayam) sejak belajar di universiti dan duk asrama ni buat alergi saya makin teruk.. Yelah, banyak makan masakan orang lain..tak tahu cara masak macam mana..bersih o tak.. bahan-bahan macam mana..dan sebagainya.. Sehingga saya boleh tahu mana satu cafe atau kedai makan yang bersih dan yang kurang bersih..(dah macam alat scan virus pulak).. ahahahaha... Maybe ini satu kelebihan~

*Alergi ni merupakan sesuatu yang meletihkan, menyakitkan sebab bisa dan bengkak dalam badan terlebih dahulu n den baru muncul kat luar sehingga merosakkan struktur kulit dan sel-sel badan.. Paling tak dapat lupa masa raya 3 tahun yang lepas saya terlepas pantang, syok jer makan sup daging dan rendang daging..huhu, akibatnya saya telah ditimpa kecelakaan...hik, kecelakaan ke? Saya mula selsema sepanjang hari dan bersin sepanjang hari sampai penat asik duk bersin jer.. Yelah badan telah dapat mengesan virus dan xleh terima kenyataan akan kedatangan benda asing. Sob sob sob.. hari tu jugaklah saya demam..so tidur jelah sebab dah lemahkan, badan pula dah gatai2 n bengkak2..Paling syok bila saya alergi, abah akan p cari ubat gatai dan bagi saya, dia suh sapu kat kulit.. hee. Alergi ni ada kaitan juga dengan resdung (semua orang ada resdung), yang membezakan kuat or xkuat je.

~Nak cerita pasai alergi esok pun tak habis.. tapi kita kena positif.. ini adalah ujian..dan setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya.. Selama alergi ni ada dua orang cakap pada saya, susahlah alergi.. "dah hilang nikmat dunia"..huhu, saya tak menafikan kata-kata itu salah..cuma saya berfikir panjang dan mencari hikmahnya supaya menjadi orang yang positif dalam dunia ni.. Berikut saya nyatakan hikmah tersebut:

1) Allah nak mengajar saya erti kesabaran.. Setiap kesabaran ada pahalanya sama ada sabar dari memakan sesuatu dari sumber dunia ini atau bila dah makan, sakit pula..so, sabar dalam kesakitan malahan sakit dan sabar itu menghapuskan dosa-dosa kecil..Betul x? Harapan saya, InsyaAllah, nanti Allah akan gantikan dengan makanan yang lebih lazat di akhirat kelak yang tak dapat ditandingi..(w/pun tak layak masuk syurga, namun Allah tak akan menghampakan harapan hamba-hamba-Nya)

2) Sebagai cara Allah mendidik saya untuk mengawal nafsu makan. Faktor pemakanan ni menyebabkan seseorang (sayalah tu) mudah jatuh sakit, kegemukan, keras hati, jadi pemalas, berat beribadah dan membuat kerja-kerja lain, jadi pemarah, lembab berfikir, pembaziran dan berlebih-lebihan. Pendek kata dari pemakanan ini wujudnya penyakit rohani dan jasmani. Ubat untuk penyakit rohani dan jasmani ini menurut Firman-Nya;

….makan dan minumlah, dan janganlah berlebih-lebihan.. (al-A’raaf 7:31),

Al-Qurtubi memberi pendapat berkenaan ayat ini selepas menyebut yang makan berlebihan adalah makruh, dia menyebut tentang manfaat makan tidak berlebihan.
.…..Makan yang sedikit mempunyai banyak manfaat. Dari situ manusia menjadi manusia dengan ingatan yang lebih baik, pemahaman yang tajam, memerlukan tidur yang kurang dan ringan rohnya……

Berdasarkan pengalaman..benarlah semua penyakit berpunca dari makanan dan ubatnya ialah menjauhi makanan tersebut..hee..

Oklah...
Selamat berdiet secara sihat walafiat.. Ini hanyalah sebahagian kisah hidup yang nak dikongsi dengan yang sudi membaca~ ;-) 

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